Cinematically Themed Update

Hey hey hey!

I have some interesting news!

I did my first ever photography job-type thing t’other day. It was for my friend Claire (check her out at weallmadhere.com), she was holding a charity themed event entitled ‘You’re Not Alone’. It was all about breaking down those taboos that surround mental health (anxiety specifically). A great cause really, that I hope to have more interaction with in the future!

It actually seems very apt right now after the tragic news of Robin Williams (alleged) suicide. You really aren’t alone and many suffer from the same problems, more than ever its really important to talk about it. Also if you’re a part of the support network its important to get educated, don’t just say the usual crap; ‘just a bad day’, ‘what doesn’t kill you…’ , etc, etc… Get educated ya’ll!

Anyhow getting back to the point , here are some of my favourite pics from the evening!

IMG_0500 IMG_0543IMG_0507Oh yeah… you know it! Little black and white thrown in for artistic measure. Nothing to do with light levels being a little a low at all, no sireeeeee. Really there are one hundred and one ways to fix a pic (as I learnt to my delight!). I went all ninja in my approach, incognito, hiding in the shadows, snapping from a far!

Thats all from me, I just wanted to semi-show off (insert winky smiley face here)!

Philly out!

Her

Every now and then I watch a film that takes my breath away. Her is one of those films.

It is shot beautifully and the story is funny, heart wrenching and just incredibly thought provoking. 

*Semi Spoiler Alert is probably warranted!*

It offers a prediction of the future and at the heart of it, it is a love story. The story is about a man who falls in love with an artificial intelligence. It might sound ridiculous, but the film is so rich and layered that it is hard to do it justice in a review. So here are a few points that I love:

1) When his friend (played by Amy Adams) admits that she is dating an AI as well, they both have an emotional break through that is just epic, it’s a small moment but it works. It resonated with me because of a similar experience; I have tried online dating (obviously a stigma attached), when my friend told me she had done it as well, I couldn’t begin to explain the relief I felt! A shared experiencing is amazing.

2) Sometimes technology can make you feel closer to the human experience and it can also make you feel incredibly isolated, this film mirrors those feelings so well. We’ve all been there when Facebook or such, makes you feel incredibly debilitated.

3) I love Amy Adams

4) His love interest has no physical presence. Obviously Scarlet Johansson (who does the voice) is sexy as hell, but it relays the message that love is blind and shouldn’t be anchored in the physical.

5) It offers a prediction of what will happen when the ‘Singularity’ happens. Its not Skynet type movie, but how will humans contend with machines that are our intellectual superior? I’m just talking about processing speed.

6) Reaffirming the idea that you need to live for you.

Anyway thats my review over, I had to write something, my final point would be… SEE IT!

Philly Out!

Do we Really Have Free Will?

Sorry dudes this ones gonna be heavvvveeee.

I’ve been reading a lot about psychology recently. Specifically the area of free will. Is gripped my attention massively and left me feeling a little rattled, but strangely fascinated.

The area of neuroscience is making leaps and bounds. Break throughs in this field could reshape society in my humble opinion. For example a widely held theory is that there is actually no such thing as ‘evil’. It’s not actually a very scientific term ‘evil’, you can’t garner any information from it all. Psychopaths and suchs action’s can now be directly related to deficiencies (or differences) in their brain. However this leads to the worrying concept of ‘don’t blame me, blame my brain’!

During childhood our brains are constantly being conditioned by our parents, school and so on. This environmental affect has been proven to cause real change to the actual physiology of your brain. By adulthood this rate of change has slowed right down. Those filters in your head that you use to process decisions and situations are now pretty much set. So this begs the question. Do we actually have any free will? I like to think yes, but will the wider belief in the future be the opposite?

It’s not all bad though, I also see it as empowering. We berate ourselves for certain decisions we make. What if we take a step back and consider that we all have innate natures, pre-defined morality, empathy and so on. To go against it then is ridiculous. You are you and that won’t change.

I’m sorry if you didn’t enjoy this post, but we all know it wasn’t my fault… My brain did it… Uh oh spaghettio.

Philly out!

Sleep… Make it so!

I’m so tired right now… I’m currently considering the fact that sir Walter Raleigh was possibly a stupid get… That’s how tired I am.

When I’m this tired it feels like the world is falling apart, I become quite bitter and cynical. Just reading the paper on the way home becomes a tortuous affair; ”What is it all for?” I scream to myself. “Who cares if Rihanna accidentally sent a potentially damaging tweet, then immediately deleted it… Why is that front page news???” I look at fellow tube travelers with utter contempt; “They’ve been out drinking on a Friday night and they have the gumption to sit in front of me, someone who’s worked several 12 hour days in a row, actually look happy… The cheek of it.”

Ahhh but it’s not all bad… In 8 short hours normal philly will back, smiling from ear to ear and ready to tackle what the day has in store! Oh normal (future) Philly, you lucky so and so (that said I might hinder his recovery by staying up and watching 90s xmen cartoons… Why should future me have it all?).

Philly out y’all!

 

Featured image taken from: http://2.bp.blogspot.com/

Weirdos of the World Unite

“Is anything as strange as a normal person… Is anyone as a cruel as a normal person?”

My first foray into poetry (if you can call it that!) I was inspired after listening to ‘At the bottom of everything’ by Bright Eyes (thanks to a work colleague pointing me in its general direction!) Here goes nuttin:

Weirdos of the World Unite

Let’s all join the weirdo revolution

Forget about childhood indoctrination

Cancel membership in the living dead

Ain’t all about making bread

We don’t have to feel disconnected

Reach out and feel protected

Please push back and fight

Weirdos of the world unite

Making and Breaking Friends in LDN

Friends… everybody needs them. I live a long long way from home now and friends are vital to my survival dammit!

Whilst living down saaaaarf I’ve actually made a few new friends (who would have funk it). It was actually when I stopped actively trying to find new friends that I then found new friends (*cue camp northern voice* ‘ohh what am I like?’).

As well as making new mateys I’ve also tried my best to maintain as many of my already well established friendships. These are now scattered all around the UK, mostly uni Mateys, my hometown homies are now as thin as ice. Maintaining friendships becomes a balancing act… One that I’m terrible at. I’m really good at maintaining about two close friendships at a time, anymore and it all falls apart (I’m a donkey… A friendship donkey).

It’s a tough old game. That said some relationships seem absolutely immune to time and distance; Every time you meet up it takes mere moments to kick back into that familiar enjoyable groove (next stop BFF city y’all).

There’s also the ugly, rusty side of the coin (I’m big on terrible metaphors right now). That side is the friendships that unfortunately wither away. Usually for any multitude of possible reasons; Be it lack of effort, distance or maybe you’re now in different places and have essentially outgrown your friendship (who knows, I’m not one to judge).

For me though the absolute worse case scenario is when friendships become toxic. This person is now an unwelcome negative presence in your life. I have experienced this, as I’m sure you have. I’d been friends with this particular person for ages (almost 7 years). Naturally I forgave loads to start with, ‘maybe it was just phase?’  However they then started to develop a real knack for making me feel small. Eventually I got to a point where I decided that I was gonna care less about making everyone else happy and more about being true to myself. Enough was enough, it was time to cut that toxic friend loose and move on. I didn’t/won’t regret it (I live my life in multiple tenses). All negatives aside though (especially from that particularly troublesome last paragraph).

I just want to echo the note I started on, I feel very grateful for the friends I have right now and I wouldn’t change them for the world (well maybe for the world… I wouldn’t change them for other less good friends though… my grammar and vocab needs no improvement I think that’s clear to see).

Anyhow on an absolute last final note (I’m talking absolute zero, fellow science nerds) I promise to write something more manly in my next blog.. Maybe about football… or maybe cars… I don’t actually like cars… Trains are  much much better and more fun… Righhhhhhht I’m off to watch utopia on catch up at 1am in the morning.

Philly out!!!

 

Featured image: http://studentblogs.le.ac.uk/

Doing Nothing is Not an Option

Howdy reader,

Get ready for a tale of woe, heartache and silly ideas.

I’ve just come back to work after a nice two week break, which nicely included my birthday (25 now ya’ll). I headed back north to spend sometime with the family, doing nothing was the plan. A chance to recharge the batteries and reconnect with Philly, you know all that cheesy stuff. Wait a minute who that guy? He kinda looks ominous and ready to rumble the party. Oh yeah that’s right its my brain. My brain’s favourite time to mess me up is when my defenses are lowered, when I’m ‘relaxed’:

1). Remember that time when you jumped on stage and stole your bosses award? Yeah that was embarrassing wasn’t it?

Its almost as bad as it sounds. It was a departmental award at an xmas partay. Every other department was loving it and having fun with the occasion… Someone should have told my boss that!

2). Your hair is getting boring… you know what you should do? Shave our head! Of course! Why hadn’t we thought of this before?

Why brain? Because I’m not flippin crazy! Thats why.

3). Ohhhh remember that time when you sneezed on that girl you liked in school…  yeesh. That was a bad one!

Okay he’s got me here. It was bad. Really bad.

Anyhow the moral of the story is… I was super glad to get back to work today!

Philly out!

Featured image taken from: www.4shared.com

Lets Make a Short Film

Dear diary,

I’ve given myself an ultimatum. I am going to make a short film! Whether it kills me or not! Its something I’ve wanted to do for ages and I have slowly (oh so slowly) been making inroads. I’ve been gathering basic equipment for a while and I have been coming up with multiple ideas for the concept the film could actually be based upon.

I finally feel like I’ve finally made a huge breakthrough (it feels that way anyway). I’ve been posting ads (its that simple)… and turns out there’s loads of people out there who wanna do exactly the same thing. I’ve had a lot of replies from people who want to get involved and make a movie from scratch with a zero budget! I was even bizarrely contacted by the sunday times, who were interested in my advert (turns out I’m a genius at ad writing!).

I must add that I’m not sure what my motives actually are for making a movie, a healthy suspicion of adulthood has a lot to do with it, growing up is just rubbish really, I want to do something different! Anyhow if you’re reading this and you want to get involved then drop me a line, I intend to start group meetings by the end of July 2014!

How I visualise the process is in this sort of order/process:

Write a screenplay
Storyboard it
Cast it
Shoot it!
Edit it!
Promote it!

Easy peasy…

Philly out!

Featured image taken from: http://www.filmoxford.org/course/dslr-cinematography/

 

Where Am I Going?

Conformity is the enemy… Normal is just the worst thing anyone can attain to in my eyes. Yet why do 99% (myself included) conform???

Basically we construct our identities on the basis of attitudes towards us. We get ideas in our head as to what is the norm based on the people around us, its human nature, but that doesn’t mean its good for you. We’re particularly vulnerable to this at an early age as well (old people on the other hand just don’t give a shit). We’re fed gender stereo types on how a boy or girl is supposed to behave, it needs to stop. In my minds eye I can still see now the people who affected me the most with what they thought were harmless comments when I was growing up. In the end it starts to become a script of common comments and questions (a wearying, predictable and demoralizing script, probably written by Michael Bay). We all start as clean slates and slowly get bogged down by what we perceive we should be doing. It sounds cheezy (and by god it is), but the only person you should be living for is yourself ( I mean this figuratively not literally, if little ones depend on you, you should probably keep looking after them with food, shelter and such).

Why am I harping on then? Well, at the start of the year, when it is natural to reflect and evaluate your life (and don’t forget those sweet January blues), I made the startling revelation that for the first time ever, I do not have any big goals on the horizon. I’d done the education thing, I’d then got a good job, but what was next? Am I now destined to just continue working away forever (a wage slave to big Sam’s dollar)? What is my next big goal? What do I want to do with my life (DEEP)? It would be easy to now state the same old bullshit we’re fed by society; Conformist rubbish really. I usually then react by harping on about writing a book or creating a film, but I haven’t acted on it. So far I’ve been 99% inspiration 1% motivation… and 1% doesn’t get you far I tells ya. I think people would say I should now be looking to find a girl, settle down and create a family. I respond to that simply… why? Its kind of a well traveled path this whole western-european life thing isn’t it? If I’ve not got anything sorted out on my end, then why should I have kids? It would be ridiculous in my opinion. Maybe when I find the right person that will change, who knows? Or maybe I just have a reaaaaally bleak outlook (but we all know I have an incredibly sunny disposition)?

To add some kind of conviction to what I’m saying (to my ramblings). An example of we all should be doing is being set by none other than my uncle. He recently said that he wants to be a vicar, I really hope he does so as well. It is refreshing to see someone have such a clear goal to work towards. That is how you become successful, you aim for something, then you go and get it (he blogs as well at: http://stodges.wordpress.com go check it out).

Right I’m done, I hope some of this made sense to someone somewhere, in some reality maybe in the future or in the past depending on whether or not time is linear or not (who knows I’m not one to judge).

Philly OUT!

Featured image taken from: http://ripgal.wordpress.com/

Should You Talk About It?

I like to talk, I am a big talker, the sound of my own voice is music to my ears, all my friends and family can back me up on this.

Thats why I started blogging (one of 2013-Phil’s finest decisions), I kinda feel like I have a lot to say and blogging gives me the opportunity to dump everything rattling around in my head space, in textual form onto the world wide web (this internet thing is all the rage). If you’ve been thinking about starting a blog I recommend it to the nth degree (mathing it up… I recommend maths as well)!

In general the point I’m trying to make is talk talk talk; textually, audibly or maybe even get some emotional pictionary going; Talk about it. Whatever it is that’s on your mind, get it out in to the great wide open, you will feel soooo much better (if you’re a meth cook or an international assassin… maybe do it anonymously, but otherwise get on it).

As a society I think there is still so much we need to talk about. The discussion of mental health issues is something that I have an interest in (if I come across any blog on this topic, then I’m reading it). We are getting there slowly, but you still hear ignorant comments from people who just don’t understand the problem and say things like: ‘weak minded’ and ‘Pull yourself together’. Same sex marriage and gender equality also need sorting out desperately.

From my personal experiences it always feels like the older generation just don’t get it. Its almost as if this next step in social progression is just one too far for them. As the younger generation we feel adamant that what we feel is correct and they’re just stick in the muds holding us back. They probably felt the same about their elders back in the day as well.

When we are the older generation, what will the youth of that age be pushing through? Will we remember how we feel now or will we sound just like our elders of today? What will the injustices of society be in 20-30 years time? How will we react?

Robot ethics: Obviously we’ll have robots in the future, so how will we define ‘robot ethics’? It was only recently in the news about allowing a robot to make the decision to kill someone. Who would be at fault for this, the engineer, the robot itself? So many issues.

Poor little bugger

Poor little bugger

Equal rights for vertigo sufferers: In the future can you imagine how crowded earth is gonna get? Obviously in a place like London, the only solution will be to build up (think Coruscant). All the town houses will be removed and replaced with skyscrapers. Do people who suffer from vertigo have an automatic right to ground floor accommodation? Soooo many issues.

This guy is probably not a vertigo sufferer.

This guy is probably not a vertigo sufferer.

What do you think the issues of tomorrow will be? Lizard people? Will the Game of Thrones develop into a fully fledged religion with millions debating its hidden deep meanings?

Anyhow thats me done, felt good to flex the old blogging muscles again,

Philly out!

 

Featured image taken from:http://www.visualnews.com/2011/03/01/drawing-on-world-issues-illustrations-that-make-you-think/

Image [1] taken from:http://www.pinkjooz.com/index.php/2013/01/

Image [2] taken from: http://www.express.co.uk/news/weird/473047/Incredible-pictures-show-daredevil-climbers-scale-skyscrapers-without-any-safety-gear